Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Negativity
Tonight I went to Pavilion GSC to watch a Thai ghost movie with Rupert, Cheng and others. At the same time sailou jio makan. I feel like it's like counting down every time we meet. So I attend both. I firstly ate with sailou and friends ad only meet my hometown friends. I am excited today from the day till night. But after movie, I feel lost again. When thinking of tomorrow have to start my reports I feel depressed again. I appreciate silently every time can go out with friends as I know after I leave KL and go back to AS, I only can meet my family members. No friends are staying in AS anymore. When the life of a student comes to an end, I definitely will miss a lot of thing. I miss those day in secondary school when friends stick together with me and how they care for me. Form 6 life was not as good, and Uni life is the most disappointing. When friends has found their own gang, it means that's the time which you will be losing a friend again. This situation keeps repeating throughout my student life, don't know how about others. When I do my report alone, I cant stop myself thinking the days when I was in secondary school when a bunch of friends rushing homework together. Was I too happy in secondary school ,so I think negatively now?
Monday, April 9, 2012
The Last
Today I feel so sleepy, 930pm now and I'm like a dead fish. Going to sleep now even though there are still many pending tasks to be done by tonight. Yesterday morning I went out early to 1 Utama alone and tried the nasi lemak and my most favourite cendol~ yummy~!! This should be the last time I try and I almost take it with tears.
After that, I went for shopping. Once mentioning shopping, all my mood comes back, whatever sadness turn to nothing in no time. Finally, I've decided my attire for Gala Night. No special colour, for example, white for last year. This year I am going to wear entire black. I have not decided what colour to wear inside (not undergarment). My tie is a bit special, unlike the typical style. Regarding the blazer, my gosh, I've spent hours to search for a slim fit and short blazer to suit me. I left 1 Utama with disappointed and heading to Timesquare. Beyond my expectation, I found a blazer which the cutting suits my short body well. The happiest thing ever, is the price, which is less than rm100. Can't imagine the price with its quality. It looks expensive.
After that, I went for shopping. Once mentioning shopping, all my mood comes back, whatever sadness turn to nothing in no time. Finally, I've decided my attire for Gala Night. No special colour, for example, white for last year. This year I am going to wear entire black. I have not decided what colour to wear inside (not undergarment). My tie is a bit special, unlike the typical style. Regarding the blazer, my gosh, I've spent hours to search for a slim fit and short blazer to suit me. I left 1 Utama with disappointed and heading to Timesquare. Beyond my expectation, I found a blazer which the cutting suits my short body well. The happiest thing ever, is the price, which is less than rm100. Can't imagine the price with its quality. It looks expensive.
Saturday, April 7, 2012
Somebody's Me
I don't like weekend, seriously don't like weekend, don't like to face walls almost all the time. Tommorow morning I want to go out somewhere to escape my from prison. This morning wanna ask some friends for 'wrath of the Titans' but they gave me a 'no' face.
I checked back the record for this week. I just realised how many dinners I have skipped. Yesterday I saw Phyllis's post in Facebook 'dinner alone tonight... hmmm.. maybe i should just skip dinner tonight.' I have the same feeling as well. Tonight I watched a movie and listen for song for entire night. Tonight is the night of Enrique Iglesias, and he filled me with tonnes of emo song. The movie starring by Shu Qi and Leung Chiu Wai makes me miss my friends used to mix with me. The scene that made my soul enter the movie is the scene when there is no one could remember Shu Qi's birthday. She was staying alone at home. Will it happen to me someday if I don't have a gf. Do I still have courage to make new friends?
Enrique Iglesias - Somebody's Me
You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
'cause I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else
I checked back the record for this week. I just realised how many dinners I have skipped. Yesterday I saw Phyllis's post in Facebook 'dinner alone tonight... hmmm.. maybe i should just skip dinner tonight.' I have the same feeling as well. Tonight I watched a movie and listen for song for entire night. Tonight is the night of Enrique Iglesias, and he filled me with tonnes of emo song. The movie starring by Shu Qi and Leung Chiu Wai makes me miss my friends used to mix with me. The scene that made my soul enter the movie is the scene when there is no one could remember Shu Qi's birthday. She was staying alone at home. Will it happen to me someday if I don't have a gf. Do I still have courage to make new friends?
Enrique Iglesias - Somebody's Me
You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
'cause I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else
Thursday, April 5, 2012
A Simple Life
A tiring week again. Every day I go to hospital and come back for rushing my reports. many friends fall sick and thank God I'm still fine. Today I just realised that it's left 1 month staying in KL instead of 2 months as what I always think. I don't know when will I come back to this place again and can go to Kuchai Lama on the 1st and 15th of lunar month. Tonight I'm not going to do anything related to study. I just want to relax myself, while watching a movie. The movie is called 'A Simple Life' starring by Andy Lau and Deanie Yip Tak Han. I like their acting and I was so touched by this movie. It is based on a true story, about a servant and the family she served four generations. She takes care of Anday Lau everyday and Andy Lau take care of her back when she got stoke. from this movie,I can see how terrible is the nursing home. I understand why my mum keep reminding me not to send her to nursing home. I also promise myself I won't no matter how burden it is. How nice if no one in this world would leave you one day. I try to imagine if I was Andy Lau, I can feel how sad would he be when he saw she was holding her last breath. She is lonely, but at least she has someone who really care for her and take care of her in the rest of her life. when I see she smiles, I will automatically smile as well. What she hopes is just a simple life, get care form others and don't want to be alone, this is also what I always wish.
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
Miss
When we are still together, think back what have gone through, no matter sweet or sour, now it's the time for us to part, those memories will get a place in my heart.Faith will let us meet again, we will find new friends whereever we are. But I am always here for you, whenever you need a friend. It's just the beginning of our life, we have much more to look forward to.Before i go, i want to say that someday…soon…I gonna miss you guys...
Monday, April 2, 2012
Feel full
My expenses for this month have exceeded my planned barget. Much cash spent on few birthday celebrations. But, I think it was worth it in the end of the day. Not many chances can gather all friends and talk loudly in the restaurant like nobody else. Yesterday HuiChyi and MingMing tagged me in a post, and this picture brought me to the moment we spent in the old time.
I missed the way we talk, they are not as sensitive as those I meet in KL. They understood me well and hence less misunderstanding among us. After I came to KL, I used to think as what KL people always think and end up I become more and more sensitive. I will care those who click 'like' in my facebook. Sometimes, when I celebrated birthday with friends and uploaded their pictures after celebration. I will wonder why not even one will click a 'like' in any picture. They not even care about it or it's because uploaded by me and they don't like me at all. If the album is created by someone, will there be a great different?
Yesterday I ate alone. Actually a friend asked me to have lunch together but the timing made me feeling like not joining, how nice if my friend can tolerate my timing. Last few months, if my friend didn't ask me to go makan, I will ask myself 'why didn't ask me wor, makan with others hor? sad nia' but now, if a friend ask me to makan, I will ask myself 'har, why suddenly ask me go mkan geh? I'm practising myself to eat alone leh.' why i use the word 'suddenly' because it really has been quite a long time never take lunch together and it's quite surprising. So, yesterday I went to Alam Damai to search for new hawker stalls. The hawker killed a lot of my time for just merely a bowl of meatball noodle. After that I stayed in the library until 5. I went to giant to "top-up" my snacks and maggi mee. I wander around for no purpose. After that I went back Angkasa and laid down on my lovely bed without taking bath. Thinking how many people's life are similar as mine, never talk to anyone for whole day, keep my mouth close except while eating. I slept at 630pm. I was shocked when I woke up at 1am. Then i continue to sleep until 8.30am. I cant believe that I slept for 14hours yet feeling tired. But luckily I sleep for so long, so that I wont get emo during weekend night. I'm too free during weekend!!! I skip dinner for twice in this week adn surprisingly I did not feel hungry. Sadness can fill my stomach, I just know.
I missed the way we talk, they are not as sensitive as those I meet in KL. They understood me well and hence less misunderstanding among us. After I came to KL, I used to think as what KL people always think and end up I become more and more sensitive. I will care those who click 'like' in my facebook. Sometimes, when I celebrated birthday with friends and uploaded their pictures after celebration. I will wonder why not even one will click a 'like' in any picture. They not even care about it or it's because uploaded by me and they don't like me at all. If the album is created by someone, will there be a great different?
Yesterday I ate alone. Actually a friend asked me to have lunch together but the timing made me feeling like not joining, how nice if my friend can tolerate my timing. Last few months, if my friend didn't ask me to go makan, I will ask myself 'why didn't ask me wor, makan with others hor? sad nia' but now, if a friend ask me to makan, I will ask myself 'har, why suddenly ask me go mkan geh? I'm practising myself to eat alone leh.' why i use the word 'suddenly' because it really has been quite a long time never take lunch together and it's quite surprising. So, yesterday I went to Alam Damai to search for new hawker stalls. The hawker killed a lot of my time for just merely a bowl of meatball noodle. After that I stayed in the library until 5. I went to giant to "top-up" my snacks and maggi mee. I wander around for no purpose. After that I went back Angkasa and laid down on my lovely bed without taking bath. Thinking how many people's life are similar as mine, never talk to anyone for whole day, keep my mouth close except while eating. I slept at 630pm. I was shocked when I woke up at 1am. Then i continue to sleep until 8.30am. I cant believe that I slept for 14hours yet feeling tired. But luckily I sleep for so long, so that I wont get emo during weekend night. I'm too free during weekend!!! I skip dinner for twice in this week adn surprisingly I did not feel hungry. Sadness can fill my stomach, I just know.
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