Uncle Neighbour

I've spent alone for years. I'm aching and freezing. Tonight when I come back, my Indian neighbour smile with me. I suddenly feel that this world is full of things that we need to appreciate. I met my Indian neightbour once during my night shift last week. He was taking his Rx to the A&E pharmacy and saw me there. 'Doctor, doctor, you know me?' he asked. I replied him in a curious tone, 'No~ May I know who are you? and I'm not a doctor, uncle.' 'I'm you neighbour, i saw you washing your car yesterday. I've never seen you before until i saw you washing your car.' Gosh, I've staying in Kulim for almost half a year, I don't know who is my neighbour and my neighbour not even have a galance on me at all. Am i anti-social, i doubt? He interviewed me quite long since there were no other patients waiting up. He thanked me so much for the drug explanation. My very first  time feel being appreciated so much. 

I seriously never think I will be a pharmacist since I was small. I think I will do something related to Maths, at least. My interest in Maths disappears gradually. since form 1 i have a crush on Maths. I spent most of the time with Maths and I think I'm crazy that a simple theorem pythagoras I could spend days  for it. I wonder how could all whole number can be applied in the theorem pythagoras, and hence I developed my own formula. Surprisingly, the following Olympiad Mathematics Kebangsaan really gave me a shock. One of the question asked was actually need to apply my formula that I've done so much research on it. My interest shot up tremendously. The next OMK I get the Honourable Mentioned again. The third OMK I participated had changed its format, it's about time management now, my weakest part.

Time cant be reversed. What can do now is to look forward to my life and appreciate more. For sure we can't change the past but we can always do better today for a brighter tomorrow. 

Maggi Mee, my life

Maggi Mee-is simple instant noodles manufactured by Nestlé. Eating my noodles in peace and quiet, I suddenly have my own interpretation of this bowl of noodle. I am a calmer and more rational person when I eat mggi mee. It represent my loneliness since i like to eat maggi mee. When i see whole pack of maggi mee is finishing, i tell myself it's time to accept friends in my life, learn to trust, learn to care each others, learn to love. But for someone like me, who always feel lost in loneliness, always need to think how to restore trust and how to fix the broken heart. Too many excuses develop and about to forget that life is just like a bowl of  instant noodle.  It's quick, hot and delicious. Why don't I just enjoy life like taking maggi mee, laugh as much as I breathe and love as long as I live. Something happened in Kulim, it kinda make me feel confused. And I know shloud not be jealous, she is not even mine. I choose not to know all this bullshit, but apparently the smell of bullshit cannot be get rid of.

I wish for a little bit more

I'm having diarrhea and the cramping truly drove me crazy 2 days ago. I have a feel like staying alone in Kulim without a true friend, needless to say it is so frustrating when no one even concern about your condition. I'm so weak and dizzy that couldn't make a move. 12 hours sleep seriously make me an idiot on the next day. During my uni life, no matter how I hate the life over there, there were still someone asking you 'Do you want me to drive you to seek for a doctor?' 'Do you need da bao?' 'Are you ok now?'...Every cares was just beyond expectation. My room that I staying now is exactly a prison. I wish to go back home everyday. I am more missing home when my mom sms'ed me at the midnight and asked, 'How's your diarrhea and dizziness? When do you want to come back home?'