medical check up

Last week was school public holidays, my sister and nieces came to my house. Being a tutor, I've no time to be a blogger. Yesterday I was too tired, came out with Dr Ooi, Mr psychiatric counselor Geh and Laywer Ang. All of them leave Alor Star in early September. Who else in Alor star still? This afternoon I went to Klinik Kesihatan Simpang Kuala. As predicted, have to spend some time that can make your neck longer. Then I played my android 手机三国. My first time play kind of computer game and addicted to it after then. The clinic has not many people, but I wonder what are the reasons that make everything runs so slow. All showed a sleepy face as if had a terrible nightmare during yesterday night. Each department took me more than half an hour. Yet, I have not finish all my test and I still have to go for urine test tomorrow, darn it. The most unpleasant thing was during body weight measuring, my weight increases 5kg, hurt enough to let me bang the wall. Today I discuss something with a friend. I asked my friend, why I was being nice with my friends but they seemed din't care at all, am I that bad? Then my friend told me "Do you know, '

Chinese Opera

Last week I was guai shiong shan by 任剑辉 and 白雪仙. Dai Nui Fa was my first movie that I watched and could understand the story when I was 4. My second movie is 'tong bak fu dim chao hiong'. My childhood was spent on movies and dramas together with my beloved granny. That time my parents worked from day till night. I not really had friends in kampung. My father did not allow me to mix with Malay neighbours. But I still always rode bicycle with a Malay friend. Last week, I suddenly feel like want to sing a special song. then I learn Vitas' Opera II. Gosh, I lowered 5 keys still feel very hard to hit the notes. Then I also tried cantonese opera song. I only familiar with one song which is Dai Nui Fa. Dad: Ei, your son was singing cantonese opera song. @.@ Mom: Huh? Real or not. Why I couldn't recognise his voice.

Learn something from drama

Each day I have spent hours for Hong Kong TVB drama. I have finished 20 episods of 'House Of Harmony And Vengeance' and 'Back to the Three Kingdoms'. Myolie Wu and Linda chung are leading dancers in 'House Of Harmony And Vengeance' who always have endless conflicts. Raymond Lam (Chukot Leung) and Kenneth Ma (Szema Shun)are partners in 'Back to the Three Kingdoms'. Why I mention four of them? Because I watched these two dramas together and I found a big big contrast between these two drama. Chukot Leung and Szema Shun they trust each other very much and solve all the problems. While Myolie Wu and Linda Chung used to be best friends but Linda Chung seems never trust her friend for many times. Each small misunderstanding can cause so much harm to each other. It kind of irritated me at first. However, I feel that the friendship between the two girls is more realistic. Many times we will only think for ourselves and protect ourselves from those we think who are friends but actually they are fake ones. On the other hands, the friendship between Raymond Lam and Kenneth Ma is too ideal. For example, in the drama, Kenneth Ma saw a 'sok' girl, I thought he will reserve for himself, but in fact, he wants to introduce the nice girl to Raymond Lam whose wife is so sick. Ehm, I doubt about this story line. But other part, we can see how they help each other and this kind of friend is of one in a million. My past friends in life just taught me lessons to be mean and careless to others. But, sometimes I still feel hurt, because I still care. After watching the drama, I feel like I as if Linda Chung, just can be a friend in need but not a friend indeed. I watched till 20 epidsod, I wanna know how would she change to be a better person, I also want to learn.

夜夜夜夜

Tonight I cant sleep again. When I sing this song, again, I think back a lot... “一开始我聪明结束我聪明 聪明的几乎的毁掉了我自己 想问天问大地或者是迷信问问宿命 放弃所有抛下所有 让我飘流在安静的夜夜空里。。。”

Companion

This afternoon I went to high court to find Pesuruhanjaya sumpah with Chia. HuiChyi, my personal lawyer (perasan sendiri) asked me to go Balisha shopshouse there to take oath. Hihi, to save money,eventually we went to Alor Star High Court. After that we went to Hospital Sultananh Bahiyah. Thinking that we can do medical check-up there, they said this hospital have no such service, please go to Klinik Kesihatan Perbandaran which was used to be Hospital Besar Alor Star. After wasting so much time, the persons in charged ask us why don't we do it at Klinik Kesihatan Simpang Kuala which is so near to our house since they will carry out all the tests for us including x-ray. Haha, true also... Kt now has owned a smartphone, Owen just got his new Ipad. It seems that can send free message to more and more people. Chia and Sudharma was asking me about sumsung galaxy. Next month I will have more androidmates. Sudharma suddenly told me that he missed those day having meal together with CK and Janice them. The same goes to me too. We are now staying home and feel free to think about those memories. I also missed the days during form 6, when having breakfast together with friends before tuition and having lunch together after tuition. Every week before attending Bio tuition class, few friends will leave our bag in the class and went out to makan roti canai at mamak stall. =) I sang this song just now and the feeling of frustration attacks and hits me again. 一個我 需要夢想 需要方向 需要眼淚 更需要 一個人來 點亮天的黑 我已經 無能為力 無法抗拒 無路可退 這無聲的夜 現在的我 需要人陪

My story

旅途有苦有乐， 但总是觉得苦难常伴我， 怀揣久违的梦想。 寂寞孤单常伴我身旁. 试问爱在何方？ 我还有付出多少心房？ Yesterday my mum's worker suddenly approach me and tell me, 'When you find a suitable girl, you must start without any delay already, you are not young anymore and you will find harder to find one once you start working.' I stunned for a while and replied her with a smile, 'Eh, the girls nowadays hard to rear.' My mum responced, 'Ya, true!' Ang a kepo aunty started talking 'fat kai'...'Next time when you are married, you must be filial to your parents. If you are truly cultivated, you will know that's your responsibility to take care of your parents. Wife is nothing, you can change it any time but you can't change your parents. Wife is the one who can stay naked in front of you, but parents wont. So you must not be deceived by the superficial thing...bla bla bla' I interrupted, 'Aunty, why you talk about those things as if I never show respect and filiality to my parents?' She still kept talking 'buddish' and I thought she was 'zao fo yap mo' so I ran away, so sorry. Today I did nothing again, lying on bed and playing with my phone. Maybe it's true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives. Now I want my friends back again even though I might be nothing to them. But sometimes it's better to be alone , than being with someone who makes you feel alone. Today talk to sailou TS and he told me, to be stay true to yourself because there are very few people who will always be true to you. It's so true, as I also don't know how many people are true to me. One thing that makes me don't understand is, he can share so many private things with me, yet telling me 'Don't tell other people har'. Don't he trust me only share with me, do he? No doubt this sailou can share most private thing with me, but I never share mine with him. I feel that after so many years already, I still can't trust my friends. Am I in a disease state? Another sailou, yesterday, surprisingly, able to reply message and say something touched. His story made me think of myself last year when I was alone. I can feel what he feels at home, but the difference is, at least, he has his loved one, while me, just can face my laptop and listen to music like they are my girlfriends. and I started to hate those who left me alone. The intensity of loneliness incresed, when you know your best friend busy to kao lui and forget about you or don't want you to be a light bulb. What to do is just have to wait for friends who were free then can sms you asking for a meal. So, this is how I know Jos, TS, and Lily. I'm always that passive, because this is the only way that can avoid from rejection and disappointment. Once you have been rejected for a few times, it's a human nature that know how to protect ourselves from getting hurt again.