Hate Holidays

Why today is a holiday? Why the holiday is on weekend? Where should i go? I am lost again. Should i train myself to study at home or go to Secret Recipe? Is there any place is better than Secret Recipe? Can i imagine many people are around me? Tomorrow is the last day for me to prepare the coming subject. Why I want to have a study group, at the end I get a shit? Why I feel so stressed today? The good days versus bad days are still battling on. Why I feel numb and detached from my surroundings? The day without facebook turns into a long-term solitary. I wish somebody could put their arm around my shoulders and whispered 'Are you ok? I know you are not.' I want to find my my true smile. I miss home.