November VS December

November
Not much to remember
You were not in sight
December
Change of the weather
You were by my side

(I miss my home so much...I wish I won't take supp...I wan to stay at home in December...)


No matter where the day goes
I know you're close by
Changes in the seasons
It's just what's required

(It's true, people are changing seasonally.)

Love is all we want
Love
Love is all we need
Is all that we really want

All By Myself

Living alone,
I think all of the friends've known.
But when i dail the telphone,
Nobody's home

Don't wanna be all by self anymore

No love, no glory?

What movie is this? it looks nice

2012

I heard this song when I watched 2012 just now. It a great movie. It's so touched between human-human relationship. It told me that we should love our life and never give up in our life. Trouble is a part of your life and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough.

Free Tickets are available

I want to go for a trip!!! AirAsia is giving away a million free seats for flights between May 1 and Oct 30 next year to more than 70 destinations in China, India, Taiwan, Indonesia and Thailand,etc...Those interested in enjoying the free seats can book their tickets from today until 15th(Sunday).It's so attractive. I wanna go to China, HongKong, Taiwan...

Just small Bruises~ I understand

Hedgehog

The past few years have consisted of endless amounts of fears, tears and depression. I confess that I'm not strong enough, just like a fake hedgehog. Please tell me what I’m supposed to do, how to find my soul as living in the world of couples and being the odd one in the middle. It seems that the particles that make up my body are just dissolving into the atmosphere. The longer i stand among the couples, the faster my body dissolves.
Every day I fill the vacuum with continuous music, chatter, and facebook. When the noise stops there is no inner music to take its place, I've to relearn to be alone. I walked alone, sleep alone and eat alone. A table for one is nice, but I think it's still enough to be occupied by more than that. These few days, I was like emigrating to another planet. I didn't open my mouth and play with my tongue. I am wondering who was the person I was living with, these strange and serene foreigners in my house. My life which without any interruption, nourishing and maddening, becomes more and more arid. Okay, I think I will take time to be quiet. In this silence, I hope I will hear the answers...=)

Xiao Yu's

Thank you for your love 2009

A close friend always remind me that no duty is more urgent than that of returning thanks. I would like to thank evreyone who loved and whom i loved from the bottom of my heart. Blessed are those that can give love without remembering and receive love without forgetting. I cannot do great things on this Earth, only small things with great love. I think love is the sweetest since I've known what is defeat.

Thank you all for being with me when I needed you the most. Thank you for supports and helping me getting through all those tough times in my life even though it might be the different people in different stages of my life . Thank you all for being such good friends no matter what I did, but most of all, thank you for being you.

Just tryna be happy

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea~~~~

Dream by Priscilla Ahn

Lyrics-
I was a little girl alone in my little world who dreamed of a little home for me.
I played pretend between the trees, and fed my houseguests bark and leaves, and laughed in my pretty bed of green.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest swing.
I had a dream.

Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be.
The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep.

I had a dream
That I could fly from the highest tree.
I had a dream.

Now I'm old and feeling grey. I don't know what's left to say about this life I'm willing to leave.
I lived it full and I lived it well, there's many tales I've lived to tell. I'm ready now, I'm ready now, I'm ready now to fly from the highest wing.

I had a dream

The night is getting cold and I don't know where i belong

Sweet =)

I wanna be that guy. =)

Don't give up

ehm ehm...after poting 17 songs...Finally , one of my songs was awarded...
Therefore, our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail...
http://www.demosong.net/Player.Asp?MusicID=3447&Url=UploadFile/2009-06/200906161135183566.mp3

I'm A Solitudinarian

Our language has wisely sensed the two sides of being alone. The word "loneliness" has created to express the pain of being alone, on the other hand, the word "solitude" is created to express the glory of being alone.

Lost

Lost in this world
I even get lost in this song
I get lost in your eyes
And when the lights go down
That's where I'll be found
Am I the only one?

I wana cry tonight

"I'm sorry" - A request for forgiveness

Apologizing does not mean that you are wrong and the other one is right...
It simply means that you value the relationship much more than your ego...
But we also know it can be really hard to swallow our pride and say "I'm sorry".
That's i learnt from my friend. An apology with an excuse is not an apology. Take full responsibility for what you did. And if the person you apologize to doesn't accept it, then they do not deserve it, but do not take it back and still say I'm sorry.

Lying by Yoga

No worries

I am worried if people worry about what I am worried, because I am worried about people's worries. Do you worry about what I am worried? Now that is what I am worried. I am worring about what you’re woorrying as you worry about what I am worried, if of course you’re even worrying about what I’m worrying… I am so worried..So, please don't worry about me...I am fine. thanks

Cry on my shoulder

An awesome song that I wanna share with those who need cares. I like the lyrics very much!!

People say

Today i use 10hours to lay on my bed and study. 10hours!!! What a big big improvement. Congratulation, jenwin!! Time passes by so fast yet so slow. 10hours can said to be very long to me since these few days I just spent less than 4 hours in my study. 10hours can be very short to my housemates who spend XX hours in thier studies. He just came back and took his tilam and other stuffs, planning to spend XX days at her house. "I've not enough time to study ald. There are a lot of things to study. Jenwin, you still online ah?", he said. Hei yao chi lei, Diu keng dou you tao ha hei la, dai lou. 'Ei, u look so stress lo, ahaha, I can see all your pimples came out!', his girlfriends said. 'So what?', that is what I want to reply them.

Yesterday I received 2 messanges from my seniors. CL said,'junior, you seem enjoy your life very much.' PX said, 'bro, don't be so pessimistic and appreciate everyday.' Did they contradict each another?

This is how HC described me today: 'You are a personl with both 理性+感性, that's why u are good in both math & arts. U seem happy and talkative in front of ppl and u have many friends around u. But I think u are not as cheerful as u seem to be, u scared of lonely and always searching for true frens that can really listen to ur inner feelings and care for u. U are sensitive although u always like to joke. haha...above are merely my views. =) What u think? Am I get it correctly?'

I knew her since form1. No doubt, she is just like a worm in my stomach. No no no, she wont be happy if I said she is a worm. So, I would say she is an elegant and poised worm. I feed her everyday with my feces. Ehm, 'feces' this word doesn't sound good. I feed her everyday with something which is eliminated from the bowel. She may ask what is 'something' and 'bowel' is too 'biologic' for a student who studies law to fully understand this biologycal term. So, i change it to: I feed her everyday with waste matter eliminated from the part body that absorbs water from the waste before it leaves my anus. uekkkk...

Please stand in my shoes

Could anyone tell me what is the difference between kepo and concern. In my own dictionary, a kepo person only sees a problem, and a concerned person hope the problem can be solved. So, my dear friend, don't say I'm kepo. Never try to use jerk words on me, it doesn't work, because I'm indifferent.=)Never judge someone until you walk a mile in their shoes. By that time, you're a mile away and you have their shoes. hahahaha and they'll be a mile away with barefoot. Cheer~

Emo~

My friend starts emoing again. That kind of feelings suddenly spread to my heart and make me sad too. He always feels negleted, yes, me too. He always build the wall, yes, me too. Last time i used to build the walls up, not to keep people out, but too see who loves me enough to break through them. So sad that I’m expecting the expected things make the unexpected expected as well. I am tired of trying, I am tired over crying, i know i am smiling but inside i am actually dying! May be then people would realise i am just a good actor!Why i make myself feel sad? Stupid right? Well, no doubt, the commonest two elements in this world are Hydrogen and stupidity. Haha. So, how? When I feel neglected, just think of a female salmon who lays 3,000,000 eggs, but nobody can actually remember her on the Mother’s day. Ehm...or by another way is, when you feel negleted, try to pay the food bills, then everyone will notice you...hahaha...But I’m so poor, I can’t afford the bills. Yes, I will be poor always. I wont be wealthy forever if I cant get something that money can’t buy. In our life, no matter how crazy and funny the scenes around you, it is useless without the person you want to laugh with.

Once upon a time, something happened to me,it was the sweetest thing that could ever be. I have been afraid of the dark until you came. You are my light and you protect me from the dark. If you leave me I will be afraid again, so I’m asking you to stay and don’t leave me in the dark. I’ll try not to let you leave if I thought you would. I enjoy the warmth because I had been cold. I appreciate the light because i had been in darkness. By the same token, I experience sadness because I have known happiness. But beh hiao kin la, the more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present. I believe that sadness flies away on the wings of time. I just always notice that how you care about me but i never heard you say sorry to me. We may ask God to forgive us for our evil thoughts and evil temper, but rarely, if ever ask Him to forgive us for our sadness. I’m so sorry that I spoke, sorry I stayed or went, sorry I won or lost, sorry so much was spent. I just don’t understand why friendship is a relationship in which one person is always right and the other is me!

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets. I’m trying to love the people who treat me right, and forget about the ones who don’t. I will believe that nothing happens without a reason. If it wasn’t for the pain I felt yesterday,I would not be the person I am today. So, if you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, just that it would be worth it. Fate is just like the book that you can’t read the ending before you get there. Fate brings the Future to become the Present and the Present to become the Past, so dont waste the Future, or else it will become the Past. Remember, nothing perfect lasts forever, except in our memories...

My Life is filled with computer

lonely~bye bye

No Matter What

lies~

giving up

I'm not dead

You cant do the math in a thousand ways but you can't erase the fact...
That others come and others go, but you always come back...

I'm not dead, just floating....
I'm not scare, jusr changing...

v r fools...but i dun believe u

I'm moving on alone...T.T

Each one is different, but they're always the same...>.<

Back into the rain~

Don't leave me again, those i care

So true

Life is full of changes

You have been changed...expectable change...explainable change

To be held; To be loved

happiness

For cheewei

Original

Come back

It's not a come back if you've never gone away...
you are right, have faith...=)

=( ? =) ? =P

You are not the old you i know, I'm still the old me you know. I am who I am today because of the choices I made yesterday. I counldn't find the beginning that brought us from there to here. I know, things happen to me, and sometimes I don't realize why it happened until much later. But eventually it all makes sense. I don't need how many rulers to measure our distance now. I don't whether you are escaping some questions or i am asking too much. Sometimes the littlest thing in life changes something forever and there will be times when you wish you can go back to how things used to be but you just can't because things have changed so much. Maybe you are my favorite mistake. I shall never regret the past, never regret something that once made I smile, because at one point I really wanted it. I hope that feeling lasts longer, but it dosn't in fact. I only regretted never hearing what you really thought of me.
The sun still shines, the sun still sets. I'll close my eyes and make a wish... hoping you'll remember =) I will be prepared whatever happens, but my promise will not change =)

ostrich

How to sleep?

What happen if the person you trust the most says something that he knows you scare and don't want to listen? Feeling lost in these few days, wish there's someone who could give me courage and support. I don't even espect my close friend will pour salt on my wound and make my hurt worse. Why always ask me the same question when I'm trying to escape from telling the truth. When I wanna answer your question, you said it's no point to chat anymore and followed by a 'goodbye'. Who shloud I talk to nex time? I should keep it forever instead. I shouldn't give any opinion or share any things regarding to this sensetive issue.I' not afraid to be alone, cause I know there are stil someones around me. But I'm scare now, cause I know someone will neglet me as what had mentioned before. I don't how to describe my feelings now. I just know if I'm not going to sleep now, tmr I'll get sick for sure. Consequently, i will fail in my exam tmr. Teach me how to sleep tight, especially at this extremely sad night. I cant sign in msn, I'm monologing...I already off my lappy, but i on it back...because i cant sleep!!!!!!!

frineds forever =)

DISAPPOINTED

I don't know what to write...1 word...sad

Stay Present

Do i focus so much on the past and the future that you lose touch with the beauty of the here and now? I think the answer is YES. I should take several deep breaths and centre your attention on what is happening right now and stop dwelling on the past or worrying about the future. Many of life’s events are not in our
total control, but the way we choose to respond to them always is... I will try to take note of every happy thing happens to me each day. Holding on to anger or emotional pain clouds our thoughts and closes off our heart. Resentment uses up our energy and pulls our focus away from the people who is important to us the most. Therefore,do laugh often. =) Each time we laugh, our body releases natural chemicals that can relieve stress.



生命总有些过客
现在不过多了一个

Distractionsss

Someone told me, positive emotions improve health. It's not only make us feel good, research shows that feelings like compassion, joy and love improve mental health and prevent physical illness. It's quite true. I always fall sick not because i drink less water or the weather is hot. It's because something has distracted my mind. Somethings mean sadness, stress or may be a math question or other problems that i cant solve. If i cant get my problems solved faster, it only prolongs my distress.
The longer the time, the more I couldn't discover a fresh way to tackle setbacks and gain new strength.

I'm now learning how to focus inward. Take a few minutes on a regular basis to be
totally still – no activity, no talking, no distractions. In these quiet
moments I can ground myself, recover my energy level and separate other people’s needs from my own. Maybe these current patterns cause me to lose touch with other people and myself as well. Sorry, i need some time...i believe that hapiness can only be found if you can free yourself of all other distractions.

Cheong k

This afternoon I went to Neway with ShiMing, Lily, PooiYee, Ceclia and her bf...
Ehm, different groups will choose different songs...
If go with choon tian them...most of the songs are the lastest songs
If go with cha long them...most of the songs are the girls's song
If go with kean tatt them...most of the songs are the out-dated songs+high key songs
If go with keetzhai them, most of the songs are jay's n leehom's songs
If go with chenni them, most of the songs are sweet songs and duet songs
If go with lily them...all 50% campur campur...lol


合唱：

小酒窝



擦肩而过



They like SHE and fish leong
情歌


The most out-dated song
无情的情书


串烧

All this time

why the counter showed 11k visits in 1 day??? swt...

like this song...don't who is the singer though...

I like ~art

She can draw different things by using 2 hands...That's amazing!!

touched

Touching video...kinda miss home now

I'm scared of loneliness

We take a risk when we open our hearts to others because the truth is, if we open our hearts, we may get hurt. You can’t open your heart and not have some hurt because you’re in a human experience. Even they are your friends you meet in your life and you have many wonderful, deepening, growing, powerful years together, it’s a human experience and those persons will pass over. Making friend takes courage. Sorry, i have none at all...

Even if you know everything changes, what can you do? You cant stop them from changing, you cant stop time from moving. We're only human and the only thing that we can do is just to follow the flow. We know loneliness can strike anyone, anywhere, even in the middle of a crowded C210 classroom...


我们都是害怕寂寞的人

lmao

Sunset

Lately my days are being swiped away from me. It’s almost like they’re being erased when I go to sleep...Sunset as if the days of my past...It is truly beautiful,but just it's on its way of disappearing. Actually, should I cherish the boundless beauty of sunset, needless to lament over the dark chills of the night? Or i should think in another way: evening fasten my wish fulfillment of waiting for a shooting star to come by???

Stay awake at night

What time do you usually go to bed at night? Sleeping late at night has become my habit. Sleep is a precious thing indeed, and no amount of modernization in our society or culture can change its importance in our lives. That’s what I’m trying to bed early and try to get enough sleep from now. Late at night, when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of nonsence things. I really don't know why i cound spend so much time but doing nth until so late at night. Unless ther is someone who stays awake at night and talk to you, accompany you when you feel bored. But, whats the reason for me to sleep late?clueless...Mayb someday, i will meet a person who is really willing to sacrfice the night time and stay up with me at night(not one night stay huh), so that i can sleep soundly and have a sweet dream...(=

The rest of my life

My interest is in the future because I am going to spend the rest of my life there...It is better to be a coward for a minute than dead for the rest of my life...so please don't espect I'll go to anyone's bday...No1 can be excluded from now on...=)

My song (=

'CB'S quiz

Aarrrr.....I've so much to study...I cant finish it by tonite...so tmr will i sleep in the exam hall? Help me!!!

my clothes is not washed by my mum, so can i do the same thing as what that cute guy did in the video?

i am ME ~ jenwin

I am Me. I'm trying to seek someone who has the similar personality as me, but there is no such one, neither mentally nor physically. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine and it wont be shared with other people. I own everything about me, I have a warm family, relatives, friends and a son in tis year sumore. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. I Have my emotions. I have the tools to survive. I own me as well, and therefore, I can engineer me. I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, then it is beautiful. If not, it can't be helped.

The biggest misconception people have about me is that I'm stupid. It's ok. Seeing something with our own eyes doesn’t prove it’s true or it doesn’t. Everyone has their own perceptions and thoughts. I am Me stil, whether u like it or not. People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. I hope that I'm the one who make you feel happy =)

I am Me，once more


wo bu bian~ i wont change =)

Examphobia

My coursemates are working hard towards the coming CVS quiz and hope their efforts will be rewarded. But what am i doing now? I cant believe that i'm sitting beside my lappy, keep on facebooking youtubing n blogging the whole day though i'm havin test the day after tmr...The more you study, the more you find out you don't know...sienzzz

Examinations are formidable even to the best prepared, for the greatest fool may ask more than the wisest man can answer.let's us anti exam...evry1 fails it together...

Mathematics is the science which uses easy words for hard ideas

mathematics!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i miss maths a lot...........even though i m studying CVS right now, but my brain is full of mathematics...i like all those equations...i like biotat evnthough i dislike the lectuer...i like phycical pharm cuz ther'r lots of calculations...i like to think...but my brain is becoming more n more 迟钝. i can feel that my speed of calculation become slower...i hv to use so much time just to think a solution for a simple calculation...

In the world of maths, there is no reality, no good and evil, no time, no yesterday, no tomorrow is present. The essence of mathematics is not to make simple things complicated, but to make complicated things. That's y i like it. The simplest things are often the truest. When you face a problem which seems complicated, if you look at it in the right way, it doesnt become still more complicated. Sometimes, it isn't that we can't see the solution, it's that we can't see the problem. We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them. However, the important thing about a problem is not its solution, but the strength we gain in finding the solution...=)

越单纯越幸福

insomnia

I'm freaking tired today after 'wasting' so much time in studying but gain nth in the end of the day. I cant sleep though...wtf
These few days, I thought I ald escaped fr the sad world. In fact, I'm not. A great obstacle to happiness is to expect too much happiness. I have been trying to expect less, but trying is always the first step to failure.

I always believe that shared joy is a double joy, shared sorrow is half a sorrow. I miss my frieds when something really good happens, because they are the 1 I want to share with. I miss my friends when something is troubling me, because i think they will make my laughter to grow and my tears to disappear. However, who are my friends? Do I've too many friends until I cant actually remember who are they? I'm trying hard to quit msn, but on the other hand i cant control my hands to sms my friends at night. Maybe it's due to the stress come fr my studies. Since evry1 seems very busy, whom should i sms? Sometimes, i'll lay on my bed while waiting for the reply, until i sleep there's stil no hp sound was heard. I could only receive the replies on the nex day when i wake up. Consequently, i still hv to suffer for whole night. I tell myself, no expectation anymore to anyone, anytime at anywhere. I've to find my own way to relieve my stress. I've to cope with every difficulty alone. The best place to find a helping hand is at the end of my own arm.

I don't wish to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone. I dont really know what am I searching. I just know that it's something which is so undefined. I just want someone comes and makes me laugh, makes me cry...just to make me feel alive. will it too much? When we come to frienship, it is not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly. A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet good friends but find out in the end that they are not trustworthy and you just have to let go. It's really a very hard decision to make.

plz love me when I least deserve it, because that's when I really need it.

Faith is believing in things when common sense tells you not to...

Faith is to believe what you do not see; the reward of this faith is to see what you believe...

As we grow older, it becomes difficult to just believe. It's not that we don't want to, but too much has happened that we just can't.

The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.”

“It is foolish to pretend that one is fully recovered from a disappointed passion. Such wounds always leave a scar.”

We sleep, but the loom of life never stops, and the pattern which was weaving when the sun went down is weaving when it comes up

“Limitations live only in our minds. But if we use our imaginations, our possibilities become limitless.”

Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.”

“True friendship multiplies the good in life and divides its evils. Strive to have friends, for life without friends is like life on a desert island..to find one real friend in a lifetime is good fortune; to keep him is a blessing.”

能解決的事，不必去擔心；

不能解決的事，擔心也沒用。

People are lonely because they build walls instead of bridges.

I am nobody…
Nobody is perfect…
Therefore, I must be perfect..

1. The words that escape a friend's mouth are "I'll be there when you say you need me" but the words that are unheard from a true friend's heart are "I'll be there... whether you say you need me or not."

2. Never explain yourself. Your friends don’t need it and your enemies won’t believe it.

phrases i like

1. Never tell your problems to anyone...20% don't care and the other 80% are glad you have them.
2. When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one that has opened for us."

翻唱

-fan chang-